Salam,

This was given to me by someone. this person really wants me to hear this, i meant really really. awal2 dulu agak reluctant la. but then, the song itself gave it meaning out. after a while, baru aku realize.

Tentang Kamu By Bunga Cinta Lestari

ku tak bisa menebak
ku tak bisa membaca
tentang kamu
tentang kamu

kau buat ku bertanya
slalu dalam hatiku
tentang kamu
tentang kamu

bagaimana bila akhirnya ku cinta kau
dari kekuranganmu hingga lebihmu
bagaimana bila semua benar terjadi
mungkin inilah yang terindah

begitu banyak bintang
sperti pertanyaanku
tentang kamu
tentang kamu

officially now, i miss this even more. alot more.

tentang kamu? segalanya.

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Now playing: Bunga Cinta Lestari - Tentang Kamu
via FoxyTunes

–\\eninef

Salam,

stumble upon some wordings,

looking out at the window pane, i see you,

as i fill my days with laughter, i see you.

as i waited for the days, i see you.

now after things has been said and done.

looking back at the window pane, i see myself. alone.

as i try fill my days with laughter, i see myself. alone.

as i waited for the days, i see myself. alone.

now has come my day to go,

far away, alone.

life could be cruel at times. yes sir. it does. it does.

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Now playing: Jack Johnson - Angel
via FoxyTunes

–\\eninef

Salam.

the song. the silence. the solitude. the miss. the everything.

Broken by Lifehouse.

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you’ve already figured out

I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing
With a broken heart that’s still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on
I’m barely holdin’ on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I’m an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they’re still looking for life

I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing
with a broken heart that’s still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on
I’m barely holdin’ on to you

I’m hangin’ on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I’m hangin’ on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven’t forgotten my way home

left here broken. still.

p/s: this goes to the anonymous one.

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Now playing: Lifehouse - Broken
via FoxyTunes

–\\eninef

/* bow to the 31337, we 0wnz j0o */

–\\eninef

Salam,

the week that kills.

the week with hopes & dreams.

the week full of extreme happiness & ultimate sadness.

the week thats made me smile, and yet makes me felt down.

the week i call life.

p/s: sorry to those i’ve hurt. didnt meant to. seriously. i dont. i am sorry.

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Now playing: Andra & The Backbone - Seperti Hidup Kembali
via FoxyTunes

–\\eninef

Salam,

This lyrics reminds me of someone, someone far away.

Run by Snow Patrol.

I’ll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You’ve been the only thing that’s right
In all I’ve done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we’ll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we’ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can’t raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up…

Slower slower
We don’t have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We’re bound to be afraid
Even if it’s just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

the last conversation, which moved me. really did move me.

ure everything thats right.

Its been 11 days since the last conversation, wondering would everything change, if only we took the other path through, if only, what-if. just what if.

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Now playing: Snow Patrol - Run
via FoxyTunes

–\\eninef

Salam,

The previous weeks was splendid, but then things turns upside down just in a blink. Sigh~ after all the happiness wouldnt even kill the sadness state i am in. Was happy tho, but. hmph~ entahla. sometimes things are better kept. words better not to be said.

To be exact, i dont really know what state i am in, its filled with nothingness. yea~ i think thats the real state i am in now, nothingness. maybe i’m just immune to the any kind of feelings, becoz i’ve through alot. through ups & downs. through good & bad.

The weeks were filled with nothingness. yea, nothingness.

/* zaireen, i’m sorry i cant make it to your crib, was busy tho, again. im so so sorry. To my dearest friend Firdaus, congrats sebab selamat diijabkabulkan, Alhamdulillah. Semoga senantiasa bahagia sehingga ke anak cucu. */

Ive hurt people around me, too much. i am really sorry for what i’ve done, do forgive me. all i want now, is just to go home. just bring me back home. ive had enough.

IM SORRY.

/* Sometimes I dont know what is Reality anymore, ‘Coz most of the times, Reality HURTS */

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Now playing: Michael Buble - Home
via FoxyTunes

–\\eninef

Salam,

I found this song way way back when i was a kid, and for a while i lost this track. its a track about life and the people whose been taking care of you all this while, which we neglect at times. as for me, most half of the time.

my interpretation on the song. ( please do imagine, as u browse through )

/* warning, this song really would make u in tears that only applies if you understand the poetic meaning behind it, not for the soft hearted, you’ve been warned. */

Hear You Me By Jimmy Eat World.

There’s no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.

the day you was born, they gave you shelter, they took care of you. you never really did had the chance to say thanks to them, for everything they did for you, maybe youre gonna say thanks later ..maybe.

What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I’ll never have a chance.

you got through, u passed the life test, and you succeeded. now, u wanted to say thanks to them, but ..they’re gone. u lost the chance, forever.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

looking at the skies, hoping the souls of your loved ones are in the rightful place they should be, hoping that angels would take care of them, hoping for the best ..for them.

And if you were with me tonight,
I’d sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn’t let it live.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.

if you had the last chance, for you to see them, to feel them, to even talk to them, you would do that, remembering back, the days you’re with them, through all, thier smiles, thier laughs, thus.. the last goodbye.

Ayah, maafkan abang ayah, atas semua kesalahan abang yang abang dah buat kat ayah, maafkan semua dosa2 abang yang buat kat Ayah selama ni.

Umie, maafkan abang, dosa2 abang selama ni, segala apa yang abang abaikan, segala apa yang abang ingkar, segala dosa abang selama Umie hidup.

Maafkan abang & Terima Kasih atas Segalanya.

/* just imaging you losing the both of the most important persons in life? the one who brings you to life? the person that was there, all this while? the ones that would never stop loving you. and u never did had the chance to say you’re Sorry or even a simple Thank You ? .. */

/* am currently in tears. no kidding. ( went to tears, everytime this song loops ) */

– edit –
I found this cover song by Paramore

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Now playing: Jimmy Eat World - Hear You Me
via FoxyTunes

–\\eninef

Salam,

After a while i finally realize thats life isnt going to right path as i wanted it to be. Bukan this yang aku predicted for me, but then things do happen, and i’ve seen enough of life.

I know its all downhill from here, but still i do ignore the facts, and keep on going. Call me stupid, but i was hoping things would get better, but alas it never did. I kept keeping the fact, and eventually it eats me up, bit by bit.

As predicted, aku akan devastated, tapi i do still cling, like one of the lyrics i found, it best suits my situation, it actually the best describing my killed heart.

I hope you’re not intending
To be so condescending it’s as much as i can take
and you’re so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

Right Here By Staind.

As much you can see now, i am eventually broken,.

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Now playing: Jordin Sparks ft. Chris Brown - No Air
via FoxyTunes

–\\eninef